[College Dream] (feedback please)

Live your college dream
Without me
I wanted to be a blessing
But i only gave you nightmares
Night terrors, night scares, who cares
Different names all meaning the same
I said "I love you"
I meant all of it
You said I'm lying
And tried to call me on it
I ignored all the names
The disrespect and social pain
Because I love you
But you'll never feel the same
As above so below
That's the saying no?
So if I'm high your just as?
The reality is that's all in the past
I never wanted to write you anything
Because of the sadness my writing brings
Yet you've earned more tears
Than my dying family through the years
Congratulations
Change the station
You've heard all i had to say
Hope you found your elation
The days will change too
Like my mood
I just have to be patient

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