[Advice] Just lost and don't know where to go with my life, any word of advice is greatly appreciated

I'm not sure if this is the right sub, so point me in the right direction if I'm wrong...

I have no passions. I have no reason to get out of bed. I have no will to live.

How do I find a path that isn't just settling on something? I've often gotten jobs just to bring in temporary income so I could have more time to decide what to do with my life. Every time, I get too depressed and anxiety - ridden to care to show up anymore. I feel like if I work another dead-end job I'll kill myself.

I went to university for almost 2 years before I dropped out. I felt I was only there because that's what people do when they finish high school. I only applied to one college, the one closest to me. I had a 34 on the ACT and like a 200 on the psat or a 2000 on the sat, I don't remember how the scoring works or even how to find my scores. I don't know what a high school transcript is nor do I know where my diploma is.

This was my summary of scraping by in Uni:

1st semester : microbiology 2nd semester : mechanical engineering 3rd semester : computer engineering 4th semester : computer engineering, dropped out halfway through

So basically this just means I got my math and science prerequisites with just a touch of more math and science. Physics was my best subject in college, never made less than an A. I'm a dunce when it comes to literature or history. I don't even know if acedemia is the right pursuit for me. Why would I get a degree if I have no idea what I want that degree to do?

I'm currently a musician by default: I'm a skilled musician, and play with a band for money but don't have a passion for creativity or the arts. I write poetry and lyrics and music but it's all garbage and depressing. I hate attention and by no means do I crave the spotlight.

I hate my life and I feel like I don't remember anything from high school or college. I have no real world skills or job experience beyond minimum wage bullshit. I always quit my jobs unexpectedly because I fear conflict and cannot face judgement.

I'm a single unremarkable 21 year old male in the US. I don't know how college works. I don't have career goals. I don't see myself alive 5 years from now. I don't have a resume. I don't know what taxes are. I don't understand career aptitude tests. I don't have enough money to pay rent this month. I'm too scared of strangers and public places to leave my apartment 90% of the time.

I'd be surprised if you read this far, but I'll be here to answer questions about myself if I was unclear. I'm just looking for advice, and I'm not sure if I could do anything with it, but I guarantee I'll read it.

Thanks