Googled porn but didn't watch it
So I'm trying to quit porn but obviously it's not very easy. Today I googled for a porn blog to see if there were updates, although I did not visit the site itself. I saw on google that there weren't any updates (it shows you the text of the last upload on the blog on the search results page). Obviously I shouldn't do this, because what if there was an update? I'm still not allowed to watch it. However, in the past I would still watch porn anyway, but this time I thought: why am I doing this? I don't even want this.
I did not see any images, nor did I MO, but is this still a relapse? It's the sort of behavior that is fueled by my addiction. Obviously it doesn't have the same effects as actually watching it and PMOing, but it's still bad. Thoughts?
Edit: I find myself trying to justify this sort of behavior, and I've realized that this won't help me. If I need to justify it, it's a relapse. Resolved.
Posted Dec 2, 2015, 11:41 PM UTC · edited