First trimester - the weeping is REAL

5 weeks and 4 days along and Yesterday was filled with uncontrollable crying. First I cried because I was mad about being stuck in this (almost perfect) relationship forever, and that I ever wanted to be pregnant. (Like, what did I get myself into..) THEN, I was mean to my SO bc emotions!! THEN he was understanding, and so I cried bc I am afraid I am going to drive him away and he's not going to want to be with me anymore. (He reassured me that's not ever going to happen) after that mess, I was crying about pretty much anything. The DEPRESSION is killer. Today is much better, but I super duper hope this goes away soon. Any of you in your first trimester or beyond that can relate? What made you feel happy in these overly sad times. I felt So damn weak, like I was losing my mind. Like, I shouldn't be doing this, I'm not ready, or stable enough, that I'm going to hate being stuck and basically every selfish feeling that I usually would NEVER think of feel. I hate those episodes. What are your stories with the moodiness? I'm not even half way through the first trimester, and I feel like I'm not going to survive this. Where the heck are all these selfish feelings coming from?! Someone please make me laugh at myself.