fifteen, no motivation, just want to explore the galaxy lol? /,:

as the title says, i'm a loser. life just feels meaningless lately and i have no motivation to do anything. i'm super aware of myself and my thoughts (constantly) and it makes it really hard to socialize. i especially feel that my life is pointless unless i get off of this planet. it sounds crazy, but its true! i just need to know that there is something out there besides our little quaint planet where religion and trends matter - not advancing science. it's especially depressing to confront the fact that i personally will most likely live and die on this planet just like every other human ever, never truly seeing another planet with my own two eyes. it makes me feel anxious because the universe is huge! and the meaning of my life, i feel, is to be an astronomer. thing is, i'm bad at math and i currently have ALL f's. literally, every single class is a F and i have one D. its crazy, lol. i just want to dropout and devote my life to astronomy! <----- and that sentence is what fucks me up. i don't know, i just needed to vent. sorry to you, who is still reading this for some reason. i just need to do the fuckin work /: mainly though, do you feel the same way? or know anyone who has? like is it entirely crazy that i feel depressed all because of space basically?? /: