For you ;)

I am so into you and I have no idea why. I am drawn to you for some reason and can't seem to get you out of my head. I want you so badly but I can't have you. I have never felt this way in my life. I'm not even sure what I feel honestly. It is a horrible feeling, whatever it is, like angst, sexual frustration, and something else.

I'm not even sure that if there were no obstacles, that you would really want me too. I feel like most of what you have said has been a lie anyway or like you were just messing with me for your entertainment.

I want you to contact me but that would make it worse. Although, it doesn't feel like it's getting better. I want you to be mean to me and tell me that I'm a horrible person, that I'm ugly and that you never wanted me because then maybe my pride would make me get over you. Although, I'm sure it would shatter me. At the same time I want you to say nice things to me and tell me how much you want me too. But that would be so bad for me as well.

Me