Yesterday's Sunshine

I have so much more to go

The destination is unknown-- you said "forever so I figured you would know

I'm sorry, the way paved wasn't made for the inexperienced nomad

and paths that seem like long circles can drive me so mad,

but you caught me every time my second left foot took liberty to step with the first

I don't know what's worse: my decision to have you carry me to the end

or unwarily running to pick up everything you found stunning

I had to carry them close to my heart because my hands were full

The red, pink, orange, blue hues in the sky that made you marvel keep my chest warm

and we smile through life's storms

Screaming to the torn sky "Bring it on!"

I swear I've never felt braver

It's a real shame lightning can't strike in the same place twice

bravery struck with it somewhere else

Somewhere far, and I wish you could've seen your face when you saw it flash;

heard laughter following your gasp and like that I ran to go grab it

I wish you knew where I ran off to

I keep tripping-- my skull hits the ground, spilling my mother's worries I stored in my head to bounce around

Just above my eyes so I couldn't see them

and deep enough to mute their sound

I stand up and kick dust over my mess so nobody can see I've been there

You see, loneliness isn't a skill that I've honed

My mind is lost in retrospect and mistakes the good times with you as home

By a river skipping stones, we watch water glow under the sunset

We wait to dance under the stars

The sand under our feet remembers our choreography

We bury our shames under our indifference, they weren't important anymore

I fell under your spell

The air falls under the influence of the words in your mouth and carries your message to my ears

you say

I want to be wherever you are,

As long as you're here I want to be near

The sky is clear, so let's show the moon what true love looks like!

Everyone told me, I don't know what true love looks like

You told me to walk with you through eternity so we can find out together

You decided my fate from there

Proximity is something that we were supposed to share

My path made sense

Wherever you were was the right way to go

Now I'm lost and the moon waxes and wanes, still waiting for another show

I don't know...

I have been scared

I'm scared that one day, as I'm walking I'll find my heart on the ground

After being bound to you, it had to be torn off

I don't know...

I'm afraid I'll see this tattered shadow of what you once determined stunning and not want to pick it up

Once a beloved gift from Cupid

I was so stupid for letting him make me believe love to be so lucid,

that yesterday's sunshine meant today's

I watch us decay, time slipping through my fingers while your words still linger

I bury our mess, just above my mother's worries

Deep enough to still be tripped over

Every time I look up from being faced down on the ground

I don't know where I went

I don't know why I left

The destination is unknown

All I know is I have so much more to go

So I keep walking

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