Drifting into Nothing

Night after night,

I would lie here awake.

Waiting for your call,

For your voice I could not mistake.

 

The love you had for me,

Felt better than the sun.

Little did I know,

How soon you would run.

 

Your voice it was soothing,

It helped rock me to sleep.

Day after day,

And week after week.

 

It coddled and held me,

You kept me sane.

For it never was harsh,

And it never was vain.

 

But today you hurt me,

You left me in the dark.

You left me alone,

And stabbed me straight through the heart.

  You didn’t want to talk,

Or even try to explain.

Just talking in circles,

And my feelings felt slain.

 

Now as I lie in my bed,

My mind is filled with fright.

As I watch the day,

Slowly turn to the night.

 

All alone I am,

With nothing but a dog.

Now I drift off to sleep,

With my mind in the fog.

 

Every night I used to dream,

About our future and us.

But now I can’t sleep,

I just toss and I fuss.

 

The words you said,

Are spinning in my head.

I can't even sleep,

In what used to be our bed.

 

I’m exiled to the couch,

Where the memories are barely there.

I don't deserve to be comfortable,

I deserve to be bare.

 

God made a point,

Of causing me pain.

For what, i’m not certain,

But I feel it just the same.

 

My dreams are dark or nonexistent,

Just like your love.

But it was decided I can’t have you,

That was spoken from above.

 

I will never stop hoping,

And praying you will come back,

Because every time I close my eyes,

It just takes me back.

 

Back to the days,

When you were here.

The days full of love,

And the days full of cheer.

 

But now you are gone,

And there is no reason left to live.

So a gift to the Lord,

Is my life I will give.

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