a trip through my mind

as this world consumes me
and the fiery pits of hell overtake
i will take this chance to meditate and enjoy the superfluous meadows
the meadows which lead to our fate
or destiny
a sweet sound of bliss
a taste of heaven
and the satisfaction of living are what encompass.
the angels cry tears of anguish
as the final announcement is made
there is no heaven
there is no hell
we are one with eachother and two with the earth
and as the ground below me, begins to open up
i wonder to myself if i have lived
but i don't live long enough to ever answer.
so i am swallowed whole
because of this mastermind who created me
is now destroying me.
internally. externally. spiritually.
i am left breathless
left alone.
it is now that i realize i am not truly free
until the end of this test
my life is what ultimately destroys me.
i am still falling.
and i will fall forever.
until i reach your loving arms once again
you are my shelter, my home, my reality
of this bizarre enrollment.
you are the shadows of my darkness
you are the words spewing through my pen
you are embedded in the innermost being of my soul
you captivate me
and are erotically glorifying
as i sit
here mesmerized and yours for the taking.
take me anywhere.
i'm still falling
i'm fading away deeper
but i haven't lost faith yet
as i graciously collide with the metal barricades
the coldness is overwhelming
i'm sorry.