Over 5 years DB

HATE my solo sex life...for over 5 years now.

I had fibromyalgia for 9 years, and fully recovered now. A miracle I worked very hard to achieve. That was a couple of years ago. I'm the female, he has no desire. It feels like roommates, not even friends. Friends talk and have a relationship.

He has time for beach volleyball Sat. & Sun. other things important to him. There's no holding hands, kissing, hugging. Our DB even had a lump in the center from us both staying on our sides.

Talking doesn't help. He knows everything and has an excuse for just as much. I suspect he's been cheating since he doesn't shower much, and he's not dirty. I don't need a house to fall on me, but I don't want to get a divorce. Should I cheat or just start seeing other men?

It makes me feel ugly, unwanted and a little depressed. When I get depressed about it, I distract myself with anything.

And yes, sex used to hurt, from the Fibromyalgia. But for a couple of years it hasn't...he has no interest in me. And yes, I love sex! It is part of who I am. I'm alive, not dead yet.
gawd this really sucks...