Am I going to hell?

I prayed to be saved at age 9 in the 3rd grade. I'm a senior in high school. However, I'm not sure if I'm truly saved. I want to be a part of the world. I don't want to be hated by everyone, and not be able to enjoy myself on this earth. I have hopes and ambitions, and I don't want to have them not achieved because God has a plan for me. I want to lose my virginity but don't want to get married anytime soon (being with one woman for the rest of my life doesn't really appeal to me at the moment). I want to experience a lot of things in this world, I guess just so that I can say I've tried them.

I may not be saved, idk. I may have felt the Holy Spirit when I was younger, or maybe that was a fabrication of my own mind and what I was brought into. I mean honestly, I don't want to go to hell. I REALLY don't want to suffer for all eternity, and anyone who actually has even a slight grasp on how horrific it is, would say the same.

I'm pretty selfish I guess, wanting to achieve my hopes of being a musician.

I live in a Baptist household so yeah I mean I was brought up into Christianity, so that's why I believe it in the first place. If I grew up into a Muslim household then Islam would be my reality.

My apologies for the lengthiness. Thoughts?