I wish I never met you

The few hours we spent together were some of the best of my entire life. Even just lying silent in your arms, I was happier than I've been in a very long time. Now everything feels dark and cold again. I wish I never met you. I wish you never asked me out. I wish I said no, like I'd said to countless others before. I wish I never kissed you. I wish you never said you love me. I wish I never looked into your eyes and said the same. I wish you didn't make me feel so impossibly happy. I was ready to die before I met you. I'd come to terms with the fact that it would save me a lot of misery if I ended it while I have the chance. You've made it so much more difficult. You made me feel so happy. Yet now I'm more miserable than before. Happiness is like a drug and the withdrawal is a bitch like no other. I want to tell you all of this, but I can't bring myself to do it when it would only hurt you. You love me, and I hate you for it. I wish I never fucking met you.