I wish I was dead.

I suppose most people here feel the same. I really have nothing in my life that brings me joy. I'm unhealthy, in constant pain, my gf has just been diagnosed schizophrenic, I'm flat out broke and I hate myself. I wish I had the courage to end it all, but I'm too useless to even manage that. It seems all I ever do is stare into the middle distance contemplating death, and cry.

I know nobody here can help me, so I don't know why I'm posting. Just something to do, I guess. What's the best way to die? Could I just stop drinking or something? Can you die by just wanting to?