Loneliness and depression together makes a terrible combination.

because people like us are vulnerable, we are ready to go out and make friends, we are ready to pay for them, we are ready to bow down in front of someone else, thinking that person will respect it. But it's always something else, yeah people are selfish, all they cared ever is their own happiness, even if they need to extract from someone else. Idk how to explain. But all i can say we are vulnerable to this winning and successful growing society. That will give a fuck, if we are of use to them. No idea why i am like this, why i cannot sync with anything in this world, and why do i even exist then. Even i was an online gamer, and sill am.. that was the only things i did to keep myself a bit away. But im here at this point, where life has given me so much stress, i cant handle anything. I have my supplementary exam tomorrow, and all im doing is crying and feeling depressed. Thinking of the all the stress, people, reality, past and that girl who i need to breakup, but just cannot. That girl still loves me, but she can't even afford a call for a minute just so that i can feel her presence and just talk things out.. get everything straight.. understand each other properly (she's the only one who I can count on). is that really too much to ask for in a relationship?? idk how people are, why they are such.. Why do i get treated like this? What wrong have i done? I have always tried to give my best to everyone, always tried to be there for her, care and love her more than i can.. been waiting for months that atleast she comes on a call. so i can talk my feelings, hear her voice, feel her.. but in the end i am the only one who's just... left alone.. cause of this pathetic human i am, that cannot even understand myself

I hope i can find someone who i can talk to