Not to demotivate any of you, but I am not getting any of those interesting "pluses" you talk about

I've been going without porn and masturbation for a long time, now, I mean...reaaaally long, in a "I can't even say precisely how long"

My problem being...I don't get any of those "benefits" at all. It made me a little (just a little) more social, but I am still pretty awkward around the opposite sex, I don't feel like I have more energy or am more motivated.

In fact, it is almost the opposite! I feel less focused to do work, I feel tired more easily, and I think I became kind of addicted to an online video-game, maybe as a substitute for my past addiction. Also, it hasn't become any "natural" not to do it. It still requires a lot of will power most of the days. It is like there is this whole lot of energy/effort spent in "not doing it", that is just lost and not focused on anything in particular. Just the negative action of "not doing it"

I feel like giving up and returning to my "comfort" zone, but I imagine I would feel even worse about myself for giving up and this would just hinder my confidence.

Does anyone feels this way? Do you have any ways of remedying this?