Very annoying day...

So, I'm gonna try to describe things as best as I can... I've lived with my parents since I was 18, because of issues like depression and whatnot. Anyway, back in November we lost our place, had to stay with my parents' friends, and I was there for about a month. But, I got kicked out because I couldn't find a job even though I was trying. Luckily, I had my sister and brother in law to take me in. This was around the middle of December and I stayed with them until the third of this month. The whole time I was with them, I only got the meds I take (Subutex) on the second of both January and February. But, for some reason, I didn't have any withdrawals. It was weird. Maybe it was the change of environment, something about bein at my sister's?

Anyway, on the third of this month I basically stayed at the hospital for two weeks because my dad's in there and had sepsis from some sort of blister on his foot that just got way worse in, like, only two days. The whole time we were at the apartment, my mom and I only got three tex, having to split between two people, so it was hard.

Anyway, at the start of this month, my mom got us a townhouse apartment so that's where I am now. I'm not going through withdrawals, but my mom is, and I'm still in pain and want the damn high. Anyway, we currently don't have a car, so we only have like two contacts and one of them is only an intermediary to her friend who sells them, and we're trying to get her to lend us one until the third of next month, but the girl we know won't answer the phone. Then we have this other person we know, went to the doctor on Friday and promised to let us have one, but he won't fucking answer the phone. We got in touch with his grandmother, who says he has the flu. So I don't even know if he'll come through or not.

One of my parents needs to get in with a Subutex doctor. I'd do it if I thought I could, but I always have the worst luck with doctors. If I thought I'd have luck, and could get the money, shit I'd start going. I mean, I'd rather have the stuff to take, but I take way less than what they'd prescribe (they write 2 a day, I only take 1/3), so I could at least sell some to supplement a job, if I can find one.

Idk what to think.. Just wishing we had more contacts.