An anonymous message to my friends and colleagues

Some of you already know i have been having a lot of problens wih anxiety and panic attacks recently and a lot of other shit i dont want to go into on facebook. Most people ive told have been supportive, but not everyone and i just wanted to say a few things. This does not make me "weak". Im still the same person that happily left her family and friends several times to go and live and work abroad on her own. I come into work 6 days a week, even on the days where getting out of bed feels like the worst thing i could possibly do, and i spend all day smiling and helping people enjoy their holiday while i feel like i cant breathe and like my chest is about to beat our of my chest. It also does not make me a leper, you can not catch "crazy disease" off me. It is, however, something very real and very scary for me, and i am not just being dramatic if i need a minute to sit down and convince myself that i can actually breathe ok. I understand it may be annoying or frustrating for other people sometimes having to deal with me, but i am getting help and it is not something i chose.