I just want to live!Live!

I mean,I'm so frustrated holding back every single things that makes me,me.That one girl that I love to talk to and spend my time with,I hold back to go further because I don't want to hurt anybody.

That one chances that people offer great job but I refused because I think I wasn't ready yet.

That interesting ideas that all this time being lingering in my mind,I shut my mouth because I don't want to interrupt the stability of workflows.

I've been living my life all this time holding back.SO.FRUSTRATED.

I know I'm being unreal.Delusional maybe.What I want to know,what my life would look like if I give my all and don't ever count the cost?How much further can I push my luck and my life?

PS:Just some random rants!If you guys have anything tinned up in your stomach,well,let's rant together!Sorry if this sound immature but well,I am immature.Really want to know if any of you guys being holding back like me too?