Missing it like crazy

Moved 1000 miles away from "home" 5 years ago. Settled into a nice career, wife, kid, house, etc. Used to be a daily smoker.

It's been about 4 1/2 years now. I know my co-workers smoke, but I'm in a higher position and I'm not about to hit them up as people have been fired for less.

Ugh. Want a bowl, but I guess I'll have another beer.