Why do I keep re-activating my account?

Every time my anxiety gets the best of me I deactivate it and say to myself that this will be the last time. Yet, it's never the last time! After a a few months I'll just reactivate it and I'm back to groundhog day. WHY DO I DO THIS? I'd say 75 percent of me knows it's a waste of time, but the other 25 is just a lonely cat woman, and I'm not even a cat woman--or a woman! I swear I'm becoming the Costanza of OkCupid, but just the neurosis. I'm disappointed with the results, and yet, I just keep standing in the limelight, awkwardly staring pass the audience. I don't get it! Do you do the same? Pray for me.