How i knew

It's funny, i never really had any ED problems only very very minor issues (which was slowly getting worse) and after I broke up with a very long term girlfriend I saw no point in really holding back on my porn viewing habits...so i would go at it like a nut (pun not intended, but i'm going to pretend like it was) and thats when I decided to meet up with someone from grindr. The thing was on the way to meeting up with this guy I was so excited and horny, but when the actual act happened I wasn't enjoying it at all. I kind of wanted out of the situation, and I honestly felt like a 17 year old girl who felt like she couldn't say no. THIS is when i knew I had a porn addiction. We ended up turning into really good friends but at the same time I kind of don't want to be friends with him, theres too much memory of that night and how much I wasn't enjoying it, and when people ask how we met its so awkward to even think about it. He brings it up sometimes and I just tell him "please don't remind me, I didn't enjoy that as much as I thought I would." Ergh...........