Doing this for real now because I'm fucking tired of this

Bros, what I feared happened, after two months of talking and flirting with this girl i like she gave up on me because Im such a fucking fap zombie. We only went out like 3 times alone in that time and it feels like shit, but life goes on. Right now my grades are shit, im getting fat compared to before, i feel like shit (could be the girl rn), I Dont have a job, no motivation. Im tired of always thinking that my dreams are too big for me, because i wanna be great, just like everyone reading this. I lost my gf because of this, I got this girl who reaaallly like me to not even pay attention to me and im fucking tired of it. Brothers I need you fr, I need someone here at least one person that wants to do this with me, so we can stand together through this, drop a comment if you're down.