My Apology

I just wanted to say I'm sorry, sorry for posting porn links, porn thumbnails, and saying very ignorant and rude things. Why did i do it, still the same answer from before. I just felt like it or maybe i just failed at nofap so many times that i felt like i was being played for a fool and this stuff is all a lie. My life is so boring i wish i could do something as great as this but im so afraid of change that i stay in my shell. I don't wish for you to forgive me, i just want to say sorry because the guilt is eating me up so much. I get angry at everything when it doesn't go my way, it's so easy to imagine myself as something but in reality i don't even know where to start. I'm overweight, dumb, anti social, have B. O, and have never had anything relationship wise stuff happen in my life before. I wish the world owed me something so i wouldn't feel like i have to actually put work into it, i thought that if being a hero was too hard i would try being the villian for once. My life is so small that when i saw the post about me putting pornhub links onto post i was so happy because i actually made an impact on something, even if the impact was bad i was happy because i actually mattered. So maybe that's the reason I'm such a dick is because i don't matter, but when i think of who i have i naturally think of the family that loves me but i don't love them, they annoy me, i hate being around them, and no matter how hard i try they are just really annoying people so really i have people who care about me but i couldn't give 2 fucks and a nike about them. So what do i have, i have everything really, i have an xbox, i have a few people that i talk to in school(yup im a little school kid asshole) but i don't like those people but the way my mind is set up i try to stay on everyone's good side and try to be a hero but the hero thing doesn't work which is also why i tried being the villian, if I'm the bad guy people go away naturally but I'm such a bitch that i can only do that online where im safe in my small ass room. There are plenty of small things that are wrong with me but because my life is so small these problems fuck mw up entirely. So yeah all in all I'm sorry and now you all know why i did it