I can't believe I finally did it...

I just came out to my mom. I'm 18 and have known I was transgender since I was a kid but never told anyone because I was always too afraid. I don't know why but I just really felt the need to tell someone about it tonight and kind of just made the decision to do it on a whim. My mom was amazingly supportive and, even though I was in a puddle of tears the entire time, she kept a straight face and kept telling me how much she loved and supported me no matter what. She said that we needed to talk to my dad about it and then I can go see a gender therapist. I'm honestly not that worried about telling my dad because he has always been way more relaxed about these kinds of things than my mom. I can only imagine that she is internally struggling with this right now because she has always been kind of close minded and uncomfortable about lgbt issues but she didn't show it at all.

I just love her so much and can't believe I finally told her. I feel like I'm in a dream and can't stop crying. I'm so happy that I finally told someone and that she took it as well as she did, but I'm also absolutely terrified because I know that nothing will ever be same between us. My whole life is about to change and I don't know how to handle it.