Day 17 - I didn't think I'd make it this far! Haha

Hey folks;

So I'm at Day 17. What a ride. The last few days have been quite a trip. I've just been feisty and easily angered but I'm guessing these are just signs of healing. I was so busy over the weekend I didn't even have time to think about it but I'm looking forward to the 26th. That's going to be my 21 day streak. That being said, it'll mark the whole "habit formed" milestone for abstaining from PMO and also going back to the gym.

I have been getting horny, which I wouldn't necessarily call an urge because I don't feel like defaulting to masturbation is the immediate solution. It's a strong lesson in discipline to just tell yourself you don't need it and that you're better for abstaining. It's a weird feeling though to be fucking hard as a rock. I forgot what that felt like. It's just using it on my partner instead of using it on myself is what I need to do.

I'm still having odd dreams and also slipping to old thoughts but they aren't as powerful. I find that they keep getting less and less stronger each day.

Ideally want to reach 90 days and go from there. I'm abstaining from sex as well. I just don't want to deal with the chaser effect so soon because I feel like I'd lose control. Anyways, just wanted to give an update. Haven't posted in a few days.

I hope you're all doing well on your journey.