Scared of losing friends/family.

Really, just what the title says. I'm terrified of losing my friends and family.

I've only come out to one person that wasn't a therapist or a stranger on the internet. She was really positive about the whole thing, but this wasn't really a surprise. Her boyfriend is trans. That's really the whole reason I came out to her.

I have one other friend who I think might be ok with it, but I haven't talked to her.

I have no idea how anyone else will react. Most of my other friends despise my friend's trans boyfriend (they used to refer to him as "thingfriend"). I don't know if this has anything to do with the trans thing, or if they just don't like him.

I also don't really know how my family is going to react either. I would describe my relationship with my immediate family as good, but very distant. I don't really talk about my feelings with anyone, including them.

I'm really worried because while my friends might be assholes sometimes, I really believe that they're people I couldn't replace if I tried.

Not only that (and understand, I'm not saying this to alarm anyone) if my friends and family do decide that they don't want anything to do with me, well, there isn't a whole lot else keeping me here. If no one in my life is going to care about me, I'd rather just check out and kill myself. For a long time, the only thing that kinda keeps me alive is the idea that people would be really sad if I died. If they abandon me, what's the point?