[Rant] I just need someone to talk to.

I apologize in advance for the wall of text. But I need some help or something. If you actually read through the whole thing, thank you.

I feel so awful. So alone. Like no one is there for me. I have terrible dysphoria that's just dragging me down. I want to transition completely but I can't for who knows how long.

I've been getting yelled at all week. For nothing. I've been getting more and more awful emails about my identity, and how I should go back to my old self. How I can be forgiven. How I am not really gay, because I was AFAB. I feel like no one has time for me anymore. It sounds so selfish, I realize that. But I feel like no one gives a shit anymore. I just wanna feel like I belong. I feel so different compared to my friends and my boyfriend. They're normal. I'm a fucking freak.

If you actually read this, thank you. I needed to get that out.