Question

Hey, I have an issue and I need some help with it. It's nothing serious or important, just a minor thing.

I'm 17, Dmab/mtf and I just started hormonal and full social transition. Occasionally, I've been feeling the urge, the need, to seek out written transphobia on the internet and read it. I'm not sure why, but I keep feeling a really strong compulsion to that's very hard to ignore. As expected, after reading this stuff I feel like shit, like I'll never be "real", that I'm just a fucked up mockery of who I want to be, that there's something wrong with me and I don't deserve to transition.

How can I avoid this compulsion to read this shit, and how can I convince myself it's not true? I spoke at an LGBT youth support group last night and I felt a lot better for a while but now I'm worried I'm gonna feel the same way again.

Thank you.