I just feel like my world is shattering

I'm not sure what to say....I just don't have anyone to talk to about this other than my therapist (who says I need outside support as well, family, friends, etc) but he doesn't want to tell anyone until things are actually "happening"....we need to fill for bankruptcy, sell a house, etc....10 years and I can't help but feel I've destroyed us because of my battle with depression and never coming to terms with my asexuality (not sure if it's because of past trauma or just who I am) But I just can't be the person he "needs" in a relationship. We have a beautiful 5 year old together and I feel like my whole family love him and her more than me. Even if I did decide to open up to them....will I be completely on my own, will they all reject me and disappear. I'm in the worst place my depression has ever taken me and I'm being abandoned by my best and only friend. Living every day in this house is torturous and heart wrenching. I'm unemployed and going back to school. I'll be completely fucked and I don't know what to do. I can't take care of myself, I'm a wreck and I just feel so hurt, angry, confused, broken..... Anyways, no need for advice, comments, I just needed to get it out, somewhere, anywhere. Thanks if you read this.