Satanist Sex Advice

Hi /r/ Satan,

I'm a LaVeyan satanist. There's something that's been bothering me lately:

As a satanist, I'm proud to say that I'm very experimental with sex and I've a great time with many of those experiences.

For a while now, I had been fantasizing about a new fetish that really turned me on (I never do anything illegal, it's pedectly harmless, and consensual). I had many awesome wanks to it. So, I recently decided to look online for people to sext with and see what it was like from just a little closer. At first it was super cool, but then mid-wank I was struck by the thought: Holy shit, this feels really animalistic (NOT BESTIALITY!).

It's interesting, because in vanilla sex I enjoy a man humping the shit out out me "like an animal." You know? But with this new thing I tried made me feel like an unevolved fucking wild ape. I was horrified and felt dirty.

So, here's my request for points of view and general musings: as a satanist, I firmly accept the human as just another animal (most viscious etc.) and that we should embrace our animalistic side.

So, do you think this happened because sheeple social taboos have been drilled into my mind? How come I suddenly felt uncomfortably bestial if I otherwise embrace that. Should I even care?

Thank you for your thoughts.