I am Alice

I am Alice

I have convention

I have unconventional experiences

I follow what I do not know but

I hold on to what I do because

I am Alice

I grasp onto normalcy while

I let it slip away

I cry when I’m scared

I drown in my tears and

I turn them into a new adventure and still,

I am Alice

I am trying to disengage from the world as

I know it but I cannot disengage my mind

I use old definitions for new explorations

I learn the frustration in doing so

I am Alice

I am fear and

I am fearless

I see things for what they are because

I see things for what they are not

I have strength

I have whimsical naivety

I am the space between normality and absurdity

I am Alice

I enjoy being two people at once

I am conscious of my madness but

I wonder if the others are conscious of theirs

I am Alice

I know I am timeless

I am painting white roses red but

I cannot pretend they are red

I am filling a void that cannot be filled but for now

I will keep painting

I will keep soaring through it all

I am Alice

I am a sordid, moonless river and the beautiful sea

I find myself fusing two worlds that may not belong together but

I will keep trying as

I revel in talking animals and search for my flowerbed

I am Alice

I will keep falling through chimney soot and rabbit holes

I fall and

I fall and

I float because

I am on a journey that has shed its destination

I am Alice

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