[General] I had a dream - R.H. Sin

Last night I had a dream but only it felt real. I was dying. I was dying from holding onto you. I was dying because I considered you to be someone worthy of my energy, my effort, my love. My mother once told me to stop trying to breath life into dead things. We stay in relationships out of fear of loneliness, only to discover we've been alone all along and we were dead for so fucking long but ignored it because of time invested which was really time I'd wasted. I'd dragged around this theory of us, the us that died and so I dragged around death in hopes of staying alive while living a lie. The only truth in this world, the only truth that we'll ever discover is that you can't love a person into loving you and you can't expect a person who fails to love themselves to appreciate the love you provide. I almost cried in this dream, I nearly died in this dream. I awoke alone, it was 3 a.m. and I was relieved.