I did love you

(Honestly, I dont really like this poem as I struggled a lot in finding words and linkage to express what I feel. Please help!)

 

People often ask me about us,

How it started,

How it ended.

 

A simple little question,

Yet it could send me into depression.

 

A small smile grace my face,

Yet my heart aches.

 

My mind brings me back to the time.

When we were in our prime,

Doing just fine.

 

When a single touch of yours,

Would make me waver,

And causes my heart flutter

And my words to stutter.

 

Remember they said,

Good things don't last forever,

But we still went ahead

Because you said that it wasn't true.

 

However, in the end,

I guess all good things will come to an end,

That's when we hit a bend,

And I knew things couldn't be amend.

 

You left.

Committing a theft.

Taking away part of my heart,

As I fell apart.

 

You left without a word,

Everything was blurred.

I was lost.

My roads were crossed.

 

The flowers that we grown together, died of thirst. Tragically, that wasn't the worst.

 

My heart was shattered

Into million of scattered pieces.

Because in silent screams

And wildest dreams

I never dream of this.

 

Loving someone requires courage.

Because sometimes it causes damage

That can't be salvage

Which becomes a wreckage.

 

I once heard of a special kind of courage,

Which is called letting go

Although you'll feel hollow.

 

It didn't matter if it hurt me,

It didn't matter if a part of me died.

It didn't matter if I was struggling to breathe.

Because what really did matter was you.

 

I don't know how long it took,

To get back on my feet.

And I don't know how much tears it took,

To exchange back for this smile.

But what I do know is that I would do it all over again,

Just to see the glow that you once had.

 

Little by little,

Things became better.

I became happier

And soon I pen my new lover a letter.

 

I found a new me.

That my old self would agree.

A change,

Might be for better or worse,

Which some might find strange

 

Now that we are thousand miles apart,

Now that we have gone out separate ways,

But somewhere in my heart,

Is where the good memory of you stays.

 

I won't lie,

There is a trace of hatred,

But I guess it was all fated.

Valuable lessons were gained,

Yet there are some things that are left unexplained.

But sometime, it's better to be in the dark,

Then to leave a mark.

 

Now, all is forgiven,

As my world brightens,

I just pray for you,

To chase away your blues.

For its not longer in my control,

Or neither is it my role.

 

And here, I wish nothing but the best for you.

Because even if you never did love me,

I did.

 

Thank you for everything.

 

-Sarah Wang

 

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