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rubywtuesday

Looking for a bit of advice

So, here's the deal. My dad left early on in my life because of meth use (not too relevant, prison, etc, he was dumb), and now I'm at this point in my life where I'm exploring drugs.

I initially made a deal with myself to avoid the big ones, ie meth and heroin. Heroin I'm still not interested in doing, since I don't want to tease the dragon.

However, I want to try meth because I want to know exactly how he felt, and why it was more important to him than I was.

My question is: is meth capable of being a one and done? I've heard the horror stories of addiction, as well as the other arguments that it never caused any problems. I can't use it regularly for unrelated reasons, so it would be a weekend and then I would be done.

That's my question. I want to taste it and then know what it was. I've tried other amphetamines, but not meth itself. Is this a terrible idea, or can it be an introspective and meaningful decision?

Looking for inputs before I jump right in.

Thanks in advance, friends.

Posted Mar 13, 2016, 10:14 PM UTC

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Bukkake_DanMedicine Man•

Meth is a crazy bitch first she put a gun to my head and said "inhale" next thing I know she's got a needle to my arm.

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50kentVyvanse•

Dan how're you doing in recovery nowadays? when I first started to get into stims a few months ago, I saw a post of yours saying you were getting out

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Bukkake_DanMedicine Man•

Been doin lots of drugs. (Was clean for non-bitch) reasons though a really nigga don't quit the hustle... I digress, drugs a plenty.

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50kentVyvanse•

Yup! If you have an addictive personality I wouldn't recommend it, and even then I wouldn't put yourself into a position where it would be feasible to try it again. If you're asking "is it possible" that means at some level you have doubts that it's not, which means for you it likely isn't going to be a 'one and done' thing.

But keep in mind, there is a huge area between 'one and done' and 'crippling addiction'. There are a ton of bad decisions you would need to make in between trying meth and ruining your life, so honestly I wouldn't be too worried about your first use

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rubywtuesdayOP•

I don't have an addictive personality, that's mostly just propaganda I'm re-spouting. But I've never really done a drug besides coke that was really 'addictive' so per se the people say, and I didn't enjoy the coke that much since it was probably really awful coke and I didn't have a good time. I've tried lighter opiates as well (hydrocodone primarily), and those didn't even do anything to me, even when I tried higher doses.

So, I guess I'll probably try it. Thanks a lot for the advice!

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50kentVyvanse•

Idk how experienced you are with other amphetamines (adderall/other pharmas in particular) but I'd recommend you try a solid recreational dose of some of those first. It's not exactly the high of meth, but it gives you a good idea of the inital appeal (which is why your dad possibly got addicted in the first place) without a ton of the addiction potential.

But like u/zabzawab said, you don't really get a feel for how your dad felt with addiction. You can get a good understanding of the drug's actual effects on your psyche, but you will never get a good understanding of how that would make you feel long term and why he decided to do what he did. Addiction is a medical condition that, long term, affects your brain differently than just single use no matter how you spin it. So unless you get addicted (and even then) you may not be satisfied with 'the feeling'

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rubywtuesdayOP•

Yeah, that's very true too. He went all the way off the deepend; my mom described a scene where he took her and me (as a baby) and ran outside to the bushes saying there were men in the house and stayed there for a while. Now I know she was describing shadow people after my research, and that is definitely not a point where I want to go.

I'll give adderall a shot first. I've been wanting to try that too, but the price per pill is insane and I would much rather buy something else with that money.

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50kentVyvanse•

So basically, if you are just trying to chase 'the reason your dad left you', I wouldn't go for it, it isn't worth it. You'll never get a clear picture, but you'll have just as good of an understanding using safer pharma's recreationally than meth, without the downsides of a shitty meth comedown, or the stigma attached to meth usage.

If you're trying to experience meth in general, however, that's a different story.

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rubywtuesdayOP•

I guess I won't truly get that experience, no, but I suppose it's something to knock off the bucket list regardless.

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zabzawab•

"One and done" is definitely possible, but you won't be feeling how your dad would've felt. Large difference between trying something for the first time and being an addict. Changes the way the drug feels to a degree.

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rubywtuesdayOP•

Sorry to reply so much later. What would your definition of 'huge lines' be, weight wise? Wikis say about 50mg is a pretty strong amount for insufflation.

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50kentVyvanse•

Yes, anything can be used once and put down. It's all up to you, the drug never makes you use again

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rubywtuesdayOP•

thanks.

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arbitrarysquid•

I've done a lot of drugs over the past 30 years. A lot. As many as I could find. I'm 47 now. Always steered clear of meth and heroin because it was easy to see that my usage of them would go places I didn't want to go.

It's different for everyone, but I have seen few people who long-term are happy they fucked around with meth

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