True emotions

New to writing poetry. This is my second attempt. All feedback is welcome good or bad. Thanks!

These thoughts flow like a stream

Leaving me with nothing but dreams

Of happier times and days

All anyone ever says is false

They try and tell me how I feel

Try to convince me it's not a big deal

But no one truly knows how real it is

No one knows how sad I really am

Every waking moment I'm in pain

Not the physical kind your use to

But the deep emotional pain I'm use to

I mask my emotions to protect me

But I hurt myself more in the process

Lying to myself on a daily basis

That In my struggle to be happy

I am making progress but I'm not

At this point I'd give anything a shot

Drugs , alcohol , sex to name a few

Theres only so much i can do

I'm not dead in the literal term

But inside I'm as dead as can be

But no one will ever be able to see

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/4am4sv/apocalypse_rough_draft/d11rn4s

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