Hello Worlds, it's been a while

I tryed NoFapExperience last summer, i should have heard about it here.

I think I made it for 109 days.

What it did to me :

-Found a girl who was engaged somehow in a relationship with an other guy.

-Fucked here like a kind of virgin, wtihout listening to my feelings, instead of my monkey-feeling, was kind of very affective but not at all truly affective (i juste wanted to fuck at the moment it was possible, thinking i will get better after 1month or two of nofap).

-Dirty bad long months about that (sticking in my mind to her -fucked her twice or more more, but felt bad)

-Prolongation dirty bad, ghosted by her, sticked in dreams thoughts with a difficult material situation (flat looking, subletting an insane amount of flats) not living in my hometown

-In consequence to this """"""""""not lucky""""""""""" experience, being bad

-Starting to fap again in the worst moment of loneliness and depression

-Results bad with family (very bad)

-Faping with the intention to find an other "love dream" like that..

-Ending up lonely, materially stable, faping regulary but just at night like everybody (quitting nofap forever)

 

= 8 months.

WoooWe.

 

Today, i'm feeling to start again.

 

Why ?

 

-Because it's give energy

-Because it open you to the others, as you to find the good way after that

-Because it -in a way- open yourself to love, which basically the pretty base basic basically focus

 

So guys, maybe i'll need your support soon.

 

What i'm really looking for about you, if you can help (by sharing experience, positive & realistic thoughts, as i will do for you too) :

 

-I'm 26 y.o., i think experiences from 15-22 people won't give me satisfaction. Biologically, mentally, we are different. We are not in the same energy of life, in the meaning the goal of an established life going stronger and stronger as you get older. Don't take it bad and don't argue please? it just my thoughts

 

-You had a session already. Coz if not, then, i pretty know what are you passing throughs now.

 

-I should add that consequences was also a bit too much of vanity, which as you can see is maybe still here somehow by saying theses things.

 

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How to found motivation outside internet ? When i started my first nofap period, i kindly get gueek, coz when i had urges, the only things that helps really was your messages. and somehow, its bad, coz life is not reddit.

 

I think this is the only thing i want to know.

 

Good Sleep