Well my addiction reached a point I never thought it would.

 I first watched porn when I was 11 years old. I looked up the word boobs online and the story is the same as everyone's from there.

 For the past four years I've been trying to stop watching porn. Going on NoFap, swearing I would never watch porn again, and having parents put parental settings on devices so that I wouldn't be tempted to watch porn. 

 I set myself up for success. I knew I wanted to stop. But for some reason I wasn't able to.

 You all know the vicious cycle so I don't need to explain to you my thought processes that changed over the years.  Now I'm 19 and still have just as big of an urge to quit as I did for years ago.

 I did fuck up though. I was had a fascination with going on craigslist casual encounters and just read in the stories and pages and jacking off to that. But this time it went too far.

 I actually hooked up with a hooker. I remember driving to her house and I got out of the car and walked halfway and then stopped. I went back to my car and sat there thinking about it. Then I go back up and went and did the dirty deed. 

 And you know what? This is not going to stop me. I'm just going to get back up and keep going. Even though this is the hardest I've ever fallen and I still feel the bruises of the mistake that I made.

 I'm posting this mainly to just share my frustration and get the story out so that it's not just inside me and  someone else can to see it.