just looking for a person to talk to

hi, sorry if i'm using this subreddit wrong.

i've been depressed for as long as i remember. it's gotten worse over the past few months, and today my therapist referred me to the head psychiatrist and they're thinking about putting me on antidepressants. thing is, my appointment's more than a week away. things are still terrible in the meantime. still want to die but i can't bring myself to actually do it because i'd be putting a huge burden upon my family. this might belong in r/suicidewatch instead of here, i don't know, but i didn't want to bother those folks by posting when i'd just done so yesterday.

i don't actually have any friends or other people to talk to, so here i am. how's it going?