Relapse after 5 day streak

Just relapsed after 5 day streak

Feel shitty but have not lost hope (16 year addiction Is going to take a bit to overcome habit).

In those 5 days I did feel some benefits like: -more energy -better dreams -I felt like I was doing something noble

I feel like this is the beginning of me getting my shit together

Also during those 5 days I was reflecting a lot on my life and girlfriends I had -friends I have lost.

I feel like PMO has numbed me to my life and has left me a shell of a man I could have been.

But all is not lost I will keep at it and keep posting.

Gonna do this!!!!! Woot woot