"Girl" body and mind

Just wondering if anyone else fuels the same way I do. Since I was a little boy I have always been small and fragile. I have never acted tough and macho like other guys (18btw). I am also very small for a guy my age, im only 5:3 and I weigh 100lbs and I fucking love it. I just love being small and petite and wishing someone would cuddle me and get on top and have their way with me. The only exception is that im still straight. I love women and am disgusted by the thought of being with a male. I just wish I had been born a female so I could be with a female. I like to think I'd make a cute ggirlfriend/wife. Does anyone else feel the same? I'd really like to hear your thoughts on this. Im just another confused teenager.