A short introspective moment I had

Today, I let myself believe that God was real. I felt betrayal, distance, resentment and deep sadness... but I felt FEELINGS, profound and powerful. When I regained normal consciousness I had unintentionally kept the feelings alive. It was then that I realized I could pull from that well of feelings.
After the falling out with my religion I had sealed off a part of myself, but the significance was this well of feelings didn't come from some higher power, it was always a part of me. I could finally see it for what it was. With this clarity I created a new embodiment, I birthed a new "God".
God is a house for my feelings, flawed and true to itself. Sorry for trying to wax poetic.