Everything I worked hard for to recover from mental illness these past few years is breaking apart injust a few days.

My Depression is usually a steady mood. (I always feel like shit), but just this past week it hit me insanely hard. I've had some physical issues as well. I just recovered from a fever, and I'm having nosebleeds all the time (already scheduled doctor appointment) and I'm not sure if it's related to the mental illness or my physical symptoms, but getting symptoms of pretty bad light-headedness and fatigue.I just had no desire to live or do anything in my life and just thought about killing myself the whole time. I ignored responsibilities and just stayed cooped up in my house. I have no called no showed three days in a row in my job. It's stupid I know,I really should call and explain, but my anxiety and everything is just making everything so hard. If this keeps up I'm just going to lose my job. I was doing so great right until this past week. Now I can't really do anything but just watch all of my hard work and effort just die before my eyes.