Why me. 16 years old and going to die already.

I'm scared guys I don't want to talk to anyone in real life about this but I am 99% sure I have cancer. There is a very BIG lump on my left ball and I can feel a small lump forming on my right one. There is many other symptoms but I dont want to go into that right now. I have not told anyone and have been ignoring this for MONTHS because I'm a little fucking b!tch that can't face it. I don't know how to tell my parents so I can go to the doctor every time I think about how they will react. Also I read that they will remove the testicle if there is a lump on it that is cancerous. I will not live my life like that and if I hear that I WILL kill my self. That is the main reason I'm so scared. Who would want to live after having your balls CUT OFF. Why me I'm only 16 I will die not doing anything, FUCK!