I may be an alcoholic but I am not sure... and I am craving a drink.

So I (20/F) can admit that when I drink, I usually drink too much. I am in a Long Distance Relationship and my bf doesn't want me to drink, at all. He says I am an alcoholic and that if I drink again, he will break up with me because he doesn't want to be with someone who drinks. In the past I have done it without him finding out, but last time I told him and we had a huge fight about it. But I just got back from a visit with him and its been about 3 1/2 weeks since I last drank and I am craving it. I have a bottle of wine I really want to drink but I am also really not wanting to.... Help?