My stupid social habits.

Ok, my social skills are kinda weird. I'm pretty cool with most people, nobody wants to best me up...but I feel less than everyone else. I'm a Jr in high school, when I was a freshman I looked 12. And now I don't look quite as young, but still look younger than everyone else in my grade. I can't make myself start a conversation with girls. When I can start a conversation, I can't be myself. I've never had a girlfriend, I haven't event hugged a girl i liked before. I think it would be awkward to be in a relation-ship because I live 20 mins away from my school, my parent are weird as hell, and I am kinda embarrassed at my living conditions.
Overall I'm just shy I guess