On Suicidal Thoughts, Psychiatric Commitment, and Coming Out

I know many of us here are afraid of coming out to our love ones because they will not understand how much not transitioning is torturing us, how much it is hurting us.

I too was terrified of coming out and I did not know what to do. The Gender Dysphoria was agonizing and was causing me to have suicidal thoughts. I got myself screened and they deemed me a harm to myself and hospitalized me.

For many people this would be a terrifying experience but for me it was rather liberating. When asked "why were you feeling suicidal?" I answered honestly by saying "I have Gender Dysphoria which causes me to want to kill myself". Later on when my parents learned of my hospitalizing they was concerned and asked the doctors why I was suicidal, and they told my parents that it was because of Gender Dysphoria.

I think getting hospitalized for the suicidal thoughts was in many ways great because it showed how serious and painful being trans was, that it was not a joke, and that if it was not treated I most likely will kill myself. With this as the background, it made transitioning appear to be the viable and healthy choice.

If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts I suggest you please get help. It may turn out like my situation and be the best decision you ever made!