Can anyone relate?

I don't know why I think I want to be a woman. I don't think i could give a list of reasons why I would rather be a woman over a man?

I mean, I don't think there would be any benefits to me. I just feel like I would be more comfortable in the body of a female. This feeling somewhat evaporates when I realize transitioning won't give me a 100% female body, which I am ok with. I really just want to pass well enough to be gendered female in my male clothing.

I can't say anything good about being male really, that's just how I have lived and I have survived so far? I don't know, being a guy is ok but it just doesn't make sense to me I guess? I don't like the effects of testosterone.

Growing up, I wished I could be friends with girls, but they generally didn't want to be friends since I was a boy. As I hit puberty, this only amplified, as I became more reclusive overall and generally weird around girls. Now I have 0 friends that are girls, and 1 girlfriend.

I don't know if any of this means I am trans or not, but I do not think I am cis.