I made it through surgery without a panic attack! So proud of myself right now.

I had outpatient surgery today on my sinuses. I have been nervous about this since the day my surgery was scheduled. This whole week my anxiety has been extremely high, to the point that I wanted to cancel. This was an optional surgery, but something that will help me feel a lot more comfortable so I really wanted it. This morning I was expecting to have panic attacks the whole time when I was waiting to get put under. But I surprised myself. My heart rate was 120 so I was clearly anything but relaxed. Despite that black pit of fear ready to consume me, I did it anyway. I stuck it out. I didn't panic. I am sharing this because I am damn proud of myself and I also hope someone else can remember my story the next time something scary comes along. I was terrified and I did it anyway. We are all stronger than we know. :)