My thoughts

I'm scared to die. I'm not worried about the afterlife. I just don't want a painful, long death or the possibility of surviving. There isn't any big trigger that is making me want to commit suicide. I had a really rough upbringing, but my life is going well now. I'm surrounded by friends that care about me. I have a job I love and I'm doing well in school for the first time ever. I'm just sick of being alive. I hate feeling this way. I'm sick of the apathy and anxiety. I just don't see a point to living anymore. It would just be for my friends and family. I don't really know why I'm making this post. Maybe to get all my feelings in one place or to know I'm not alone.