Everyday struggle: forgetting

I am a bit lazy when unmotivated, i can admit that, but when it comes to Jesse, i just want to do the best thing, and that causes a kind of deadlock >.<

Lately i have been catching myself on "oh shit, i should totally not forget this" way too many times with tulpamancy, I just randomly go out in life, dont feel any "second" presence, and Jesse can only talk/interact with me when i have a "connection" open.

But normally i just completely forget about him, is this normal? is it worrisome? is it just me?